V roce 1998 jsem str\u00e1vil t\u0159i dny pono\u0159en\u00fd do \u017eivota, ducha a slu\u017eeb komunity matky (nyn\u00ed svat\u00e9) Terezy (1910-1997) v mate\u0159sk\u00e9m dom\u011b v Kalkat\u011b – rok po jej\u00ed smrti. Sestry v komunit\u011b \u017eili konzervativn\u00ed ale pln\u011b sou\u010dasnou formu n\u00e1bo\u017eensk\u00e9ho \u017eivota. Nepot\u0159ebovali m\u00edt zaji\u0161t\u011bn\u00e9 bezpe\u010d\u00ed, nepot\u0159ebovali zn\u00e1t odpov\u011bdi a ani \u0159\u00e1d jak vid\u00edme v mnoha tradi\u010dn\u00edch hnut\u00edch na Z\u00e1pad\u011b. \u017dili uprost\u0159ed nepo\u0159\u00e1dku. V\u0161echny hodina po hodin\u011b spojen\u00e9 s Bohem. \u017dili \u00fa\u017easnou a vz\u00e1cnou kombinaci naprost\u00e9ho zako\u0159en\u011bn\u00ed v Bohu a z\u00e1rove\u0148 v neust\u00e1l\u00e9 nejistot\u011b, tak jak je to charakteristick\u00e9 pro evangelium. Neztr\u00e1cely \u010das napravov\u00e1n\u00edm toho co je s ostatn\u00edmi \u0161patn\u011b, nesna\u017eili se chyby ovl\u00e1dnout. M\u00edsto toho ve\u0161kerou energii v\u011bnovali tomu, aby B\u016fh opravoval je. Nech\u00e1valy se prom\u011b\u0148ovat a z t\u00e9to pozice nesly bolesti sv\u011bta, proto\u017ee byly p\u0159esv\u011bd\u010deni, \u017ee i to je bolest Bo\u017e\u00ed. Takovou spiritualitu jsem vid\u011bl m\u00e1lokde.<\/p>\n\n\n\n
J\u00e1 osobn\u011b i po pades\u00e1ti letech tohle nedok\u00e1\u017ei. Rozj\u00edmat ve chv\u00edli, kdy jsem nechr\u00e1n\u011bn, nezabezpe\u010den. Nejprve reaguj\u00ed m\u00e9 obavy, m\u016fj \u00fasudek, moje analytick\u00e1 \u010d\u00e1st mysli a chci m\u00edt nejprve okol\u00ed pod kontrolou. M\u00e9 fale\u0161n\u00e9 j\u00e1 chce m\u00edt v\u0161e od kontrolou.<\/p>\n\n\n\n
Kdy\u017e m\u00e1m dobr\u00fd den, tak se mi to da\u0159\u00ed l\u00e9pe a mohu za\u010d\u00edt s kontemplac\u00ed hned. Ale obvykle to tak nen\u00ed a proto ch\u00e1pu tradici, \u017ee pro modlitbu c\u00edrkve ur\u010dila jasn\u00e9 intervaly \u2013 r\u00e1no, poledne ve\u010der a p\u0159ed span\u00edm.<\/p>\n\n\n\n
Nejprve se mus\u00edm tedy u\u010dit \u017e\u00edt bez ochrany m\u00e9ho fale\u0161n\u00e9ho j\u00e1, stejn\u011b jak to d\u011blaly sestry matky Terezy. A p\u0159istupovat k dar\u016fm (jako je moje osobn\u00ed kritick\u00e9 uva\u017eov\u00e1n\u00ed, n\u00e1ro\u010dn\u00e9 srdce a netrp\u011blivost) jako ke kletb\u011b. N\u011bkdy je ale zase naopak pot\u0159ebuji. A tak je to i s m\u00fdm u\u010den\u00edm kontemplace \u2013 u\u010d\u00ed mne and\u011bl i d\u00e9mon. Oba mne posunuj\u00ed vp\u0159ed. Oba umo\u017e\u0148uj\u00ed naj\u00edt sv\u00e9 prav\u00e9 j\u00e1.<\/p>\n\n\n\n
Moje prvn\u00ed j\u00e1 je nejprve zanepr\u00e1zdn\u011bno pocity, uva\u017eov\u00e1n\u00edm jak m\u00e1m reagovat, jak z\u00edskat kontrolu. Teprve, kdy\u017e pocity opust\u00edm, souhlas\u00edm s t\u00edm, \u017ee jsem nechr\u00e1n\u011bn\u00fd a pak nal\u00e9z\u00e1m sv\u00e9 druh\u00e9 j\u00e1.<\/p>\n\n\n\n
Ve druh\u00e9m pohledu se kone\u010dn\u011b spojuje oboj\u00ed – kritick\u00e9 my\u0161len\u00ed i soucit. Stoj\u00ed za to \u010dekat, proto\u017ee a\u017e teprve druh\u00fd pohled vid\u00ed pln\u011b a pravdiv\u011b. Vid\u00ed sebe, druh\u00e9ho a dokonce i Boha na vlastn\u00ed o\u010di, jsou to o\u010di soucitu, kter\u00e9 n\u00e1s v\u017edy podn\u011bcuj\u00ed k pokoji a dobru. Z\u00e1rove\u0148 ale v ten okam\u017eik neodm\u00edt\u00e1m nezbytnou jasnost kritick\u00e9ho my\u0161len\u00ed. Je tedy norm\u00e1ln\u00ed \u017ee za\u010dneme s dualistick\u00fdm my\u0161len\u00edm a pot\u00e9 p\u0159ejdeme k osv\u00edcen\u00ed bez dualismu..<\/p>\n","protected":false},"excerpt":{"rendered":"
Kdy\u017e m\u00e1m dobr\u00fd den, tak se mi to da\u0159\u00ed l\u00e9pe a mohu za\u010d\u00edt s kontemplac\u00ed hned. Ale obvykle to tak nen\u00ed a proto ch\u00e1pu tradici, \u017ee pro modlitbu c\u00edrkve ur\u010dila jasn\u00e9 intervaly \u2013 r\u00e1no, poledne ve\u010der a p\u0159ed span\u00edm.<\/p>\n","protected":false},"author":1,"featured_media":0,"comment_status":"open","ping_status":"open","sticky":false,"template":"","format":"standard","meta":{"footnotes":""},"categories":[5],"tags":[146,147],"class_list":["post-1703","post","type-post","status-publish","format-standard","hentry","category-formace","tag-rohr-ofm","tag-rozjimani","latest_post"],"_links":{"self":[{"href":"https:\/\/www.frantiskani.cz\/index.php\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/posts\/1703","targetHints":{"allow":["GET"]}}],"collection":[{"href":"https:\/\/www.frantiskani.cz\/index.php\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/posts"}],"about":[{"href":"https:\/\/www.frantiskani.cz\/index.php\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/types\/post"}],"author":[{"embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/www.frantiskani.cz\/index.php\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/users\/1"}],"replies":[{"embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/www.frantiskani.cz\/index.php\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/comments?post=1703"}],"version-history":[{"count":1,"href":"https:\/\/www.frantiskani.cz\/index.php\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/posts\/1703\/revisions"}],"predecessor-version":[{"id":1704,"href":"https:\/\/www.frantiskani.cz\/index.php\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/posts\/1703\/revisions\/1704"}],"wp:attachment":[{"href":"https:\/\/www.frantiskani.cz\/index.php\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/media?parent=1703"}],"wp:term":[{"taxonomy":"category","embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/www.frantiskani.cz\/index.php\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/categories?post=1703"},{"taxonomy":"post_tag","embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/www.frantiskani.cz\/index.php\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/tags?post=1703"}],"curies":[{"name":"wp","href":"https:\/\/api.w.org\/{rel}","templated":true}]}}